chain of memories

2008-07-08T23:36:00.000-07:00

Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start

come and gone.lets go back to the start

2008-07-06T09:39:00.000-07:00

look at all the lovers wid admiration

swear at those who doesnt cherish their love

and God damn those who doesnt know whats love

get out of my life thats the only way you can help

2008-07-02T21:30:00.001-07:00

its been a while since someone really cared

2008-06-22T23:16:00.001-07:00

sometimes i duno if your just saying for the sake of saying it
i meant everything i say
hope you don't toy around with that trust

i m back haters and ready for war

way back into love

2008-05-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

i don't know what day isit today..but a lot of my friends are suffering from emotional traumas without telling me any reasons..so i m actually quite shocked and kind of i-dun-know-what-to-do mood.but i just want to say you guys must be strong and take care ok =) whatever the problem might be..jiayou~

it has been 7246 days since i have been searching for you

2008-05-21T09:14:00.000-07:00

today is a remarkable day when i had my first (last ?) popping battle =)) even though i was kicked out in the first round but i am quite glad that i did some remarkable moves.its just that my opponent was the overall champ...so i cant say i very lousy lar keke

anyway Singapore is really really small.while conversing with some dancers from studio wu , 3 were from rv, one is super grand senior, one is 1 year senior, and one 3 years senior. the funny thing is one of them was the guy who talked mrs look into having prom nights for RV. please note that he is call chi tang

I SALUTE U MAN!!!!
lolx he is the guy who brought revolution to rv and of course, the man who changed mrs look's conservative attitude
all hails to revolutions!!!

i will be off to china on saturday =( and i am so gona miss you guys and especially some of you =)) but dont worry i will be back with presents!!i will try to get those that you guys want haha just tell me on msn..till then~~

2008-05-16T02:12:00.001-07:00

some was broke..and moved on

some remains broken

2008-05-12T10:07:00.001-07:00

when you most of your days alone you will know that its very easy to go crazy at times..like the emo entry i did just now when i woke up from some irregular hour sleep..
woke up by some stupid phone call asking me to send napfa result to ministry of defense..when i realised that i don't have it in my report book and have to ask lao shi to help me get a copy.its freaking irritating how my daily routines are broken by such random stuff.i stoned for the rest of the morning,read the papers,listen to the news and had 2 thick toast. btw the earth quack in Si chuan province of China is really bad.its funny how many disasters pile and explodes in China at one go.first you have the snow disaster,tibet problem,raising food prices, train accident and now this.what has the world come to man.
anw met up with chao lin at 2 sth for lunch.after making a few rounds at kinokuniya , we decided to settle for food republic.i wanted the prawn noodle at 1st..but after walking one round around the food court, i would like to have somethingelse for a change and ordered chao guo tiao instead.coincidently, chaolin ordered the same thing as me =_= ended up having a table full of black dishes.went back to kino and bought the historian and boy that book is THICK like seriously.u can use it to hammer nails into wood planks at and a cheaper price of 17.07. i started reading a couple of pages and...sounds exciting to me =) . bought soul eater book 9 and d gray man book 14 as if they were worh 5.50
some stupid shit happened at the mrt station brrrrrrr still gives me the heeby jeebies.
went home and had dinner at swensens.the food sucks.i swear that i will only go swensens mainly for the desserts and not the main courses.better be done at nyny or cafe cartel

and the world began to fall apart
words,words,words.mere words and no matter of heart

2008-05-05T06:43:00.000-07:00

went for medical checkup today..it wasnt as fun as i thought
took a cab there in the morning and the traffic jammed all the way from my house to depot road =_= paid 20 bucks for the fare
went in and started to measure my head circumference...shoulder width blah blah blah and i suspecting that the guy taking the measurements is gay because the moment i stepped into the room,he walked up to me,staring at me in the eyes, touch my hair and said "you got a piece of leave on your hair =) " yes..wtf..." =) "
and then...when i took off my shirt..to change in another weird uniform for photo..he actually helped me wear the uniform..and put my shirt back one..still that "=)" face...it just give me the heeby jeebies ...brrrrrr
next i went around the stations checking my body..the instruction for the urine test is damn funny ..it was something like "collect only at medium stream" i was like wtf???how do you define medium stream??ok i shall not elaborate further...i forgot to bring shorts..and apparently everyone else knew except me..so i was going around half naked in my southpark boxers =D this malay came up to me and said nice boxer..i apreciate that man..peace yo lol'
anw the rest of the test is just boring..especially the logic test..its so illogical to set the logic test for so long that i was starving..maybe it was due to the lost of blood when taking the blood test =s
had a serious headache and sore throat..i think..so i went back home to sleep..when i knew my mum was suffering from a stomach flu =s take care everyone...its not so gre8 to be sick

you know i do

2008-04-26T10:02:00.000-07:00

long time nv blog le lol but like nth much..went mos last nite but nothing particular occured except sialan was "raped"by a girl lol and the fact that sialan was pissed off when the ger asked him to treat her drinks was hilarious
poor shiyan and friend was bounced by the bouncer lol dun worry there is always a next time ya the night is still young!!

passed the necklace to !@#%$#$%@ 2day!! haha my 1st handmade necklace leh be proud!and there was cheese and piza hut too..yum yum =DDD

looking forward to see soo 2mrw for lunch..never see that gay fag for damn long liao..and yala of coz jiaying the nottie..ooops i mean hottie haha

kk lack of slp..gona slp soon.have a good day 2mrw everyone

口是心非

2008-04-20T20:34:00.001-07:00

口是心非你深情的承诺都随着西风飘渺远走
痴人梦话我钟情的倚托就像枯萎凋零的花朵
星火燎原我热情的眼眸曾点亮最灿烂的天空
晴天霹雳你绝情的放手在我最需要你的时候
于是爱恨交错人消瘦怕是怕这些苦没来由
于是悲欢起落人静默等一等这些伤会自由
口是心非你矫情的面容都烙印在心灵的角落
无话可说我纵情的结果就像残破光秃的山头
浑然天成我纯情的悸动曾奔放最滚烫的节奏
不可收拾你滥情的抛空所有晶莹剔透的感受
会自由

by the most talented singer in taiwan..who died in a car crash..god knows how great he will be if he lives till now

definitely,maybe a good day

2008-04-20T09:09:00.000-07:00

suppose to wake up early and prepare to go gabriel's new house but i still overslept until 11 am..which is the time that i need to meet them haha after a quick bite and drink i rushed off to clementi.i suddenly felt very delighted and gladful when i saw the sun this morning..it was so warm and lovely <333
met up with gabriel, tingyun and florence and head off to west coast park mac to wait for laika and jonathon ( florence looked damn funny in braces lol) yup so i had an ice coffee latte..it totaly sucks coz it does not taste like latte AT ALL but just a cup of syrup..waste money.as usual..slow pokes are slow pokes...we waited for like an hour plus...tingyun left afer that and we headed for gabriel's house.
oman..i realised this entry is so meaningless..i am just gona speed things up...we swam...we had fun and laughter peace and joy under the sun..see chiobus...full of nonsense..and when laika came it was like 3 sth hahha
went off to vivo after that to meet @#%$#$%#$%.....who was suppose to be under immense stressed and heartbroken but greeted me wid an idiotic,econs notes and a dirty sleeve lol superdog scam people money like daylight robbery...7.40 for fish and chips with no drinks wtf??and tcc charge 2 bowls of mushroom soups and 1 spagetti like 44 bucks..i am totaly broke because i keep going out this few days man..anw we walked around..because miss leng must take her mind off sum important stuff but i am supose to make it not the most important thing in her life....after that we watched "definitely maybe". its a highly recomanded show as compared to forbiden kingdom because it gets you thinkin and the later doesnt.not even a single bit. after that we had a free show staring the moon, the stars and the cloud.(oya..and 6 dead cooked prawns)

wat a fulfilling day =D

2008-04-17T20:44:00.000-07:00

我向星星许了个愿
我并不是真的相信它
但是反正也是免费的
而且也没有证据证明它不灵

rofl

2008-04-16T08:47:00.000-07:00

当你拥有的不是爱情
而只是记忆
在夜深人静之时
你会如何孤身抗拒
除了向上帝讨乞

rarh~~~the guilt..the memory..the pain..

stay strong and so will i

sobx

2008-04-13T20:08:00.000-07:00

mistakes that could never be undone
regrets that will devour me again and again when the dark falls
but something i must learn to forget
who the hell cares
=D

anw tcc is a complete scam of money even though the plates are so beautifully decorated.not forget what the old man always says, foods are meant to be eaten, not to be looked at. so i guess i shall boycott tcc from now lol
thanks njc choir for making sleep so soundly in the victoria concert hall even though i prefer to do it on my own bed...for free
disasterous days..hope it will be better this week!

poly start class liao lol

就是爱你

2008-04-11T04:11:00.000-07:00

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意我也可以付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你
有悲有喜
有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你
甜蜜又安心
那种感觉就是你
我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意真的愿意付出所有也要保护你
在一起时间继续流逝请记得我有多么的爱你
就是爱你爱着你
不弃不离
不在意一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你
放在你手心
灿烂的幸福全给你
就是爱你爱着你
我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你
要我们在一起

good songs are meant to last.this is a song by tao zhe =DD good for emo

bleed

2008-04-08T05:53:00.001-07:00

i cried for help
but all i heard was voices telling me to give up
i bled
with hearts pouring out

-

2008-03-31T21:18:00.000-07:00

sometimes you try so hard...so hard
but it feels like collecting water with your hands
everything seem to be sipping away slowly no matter how tight u clench
i am tired of trying..should i be giving up?
somethings are not meant to be after all no matter how hard you try..
you just cant do it

random

2008-03-29T16:59:00.000-07:00

it was a damn tiring day..so tired that when i hit the pillow at 930,the nxt thing i know is waking up at 8 in the morning.
funorama was like ok ok not much excitement going and except knowing that kevina is being dunked..so sad that i couldnt run over to see what happen. laoshi's daughter broke her arm during funorama how ke lian is that man, i pity her la cant go home somore lol anw 1 hour of helping out at the handicraft stall proofs that i am not a very good sales person.everyone just detour around me and ask peiyan for help instead. either that i look like a counter guy coz 4 out of 5 people who aproached me asked where they can get tickets/funorama t shirt/haunted house =_= sobx can

ooo smu econs fac building is quite cool!they have a gym and dance studio right in the building =DD and theres this underpass conecting all the faculties which consists of bookstores,travel agency(stuned) bank etc i hope i can get through the interview 2mrw!!!!

ok muscle ache..even my fingers lol

scraps

2008-03-26T04:18:00.001-07:00

picture says a thousand words

PLEASE DO NOT EAT CHERRY WITH CHOCOLATE~~~~~~~AMITOFO

my portable hobbies
#1: sms...ok its not really a hobby but i will feel awkward without sending any sms in a day

#2: even though i got it for a SHIT price (thanks to eugene..but i thank him anyway) i enjoy playing it on mrt =D it makes the trip from boonlay to raffles place feel like boonlay to chinese garden. currently playing loco roco and god of war. i believe these are the best 2 games developed so far for psp

#3: got it a long long time ago.i heard that they stopped selling ipod mini =D its so old that a lot people thought its the original big big ipod. obviously i don't blame them for their ignorance. current favourite song is won't go home without you by maroon 5. its sosososossosososo addictve!!!

#4: yes bingo..lost to some genius in bingo loads of times. so many that i 4got the feeling of winning. but have no fear coz chinaman is here~foooo~i will win you sumday!!!!

calculators

2008-03-26T03:36:00.001-07:00

calculator A: aiyoooo zomg man why do you still look so pretty after so many years??sexy back some more!!

calculator B: of course lah my master take belly belly good care of me one ok

calculator A:I don't believe it man..must because he never use you very often right??

calculator B: nonsense la he got A for math leh sometimes he pressed me continuously until i boi tahan man, but he is good la very xi xin

calculator A: ~~haix~~~you good lor fall in to good hands..look at me!!so many scars and bandages..and i still got N years to go la!!hope she abuse the gc from now and not me~~
haha. actually im also v well treated by my owner lar. see, im so well decorated. apparently my owner bother to draw on me and make my appearance look nicer. she's so nice (:

calculator B: haha good luck to you =D jiayou for test on friday

calculator A: thnks k.

ps: calculator A= ~~abused~~ WELL DECORATED.
calculator B = ~~best condition~~

puppet

2008-03-26T03:33:00.000-07:00

我只是一个玩具
在你欢喜的时候被你捡起
有过的欢乐
似乎如段真诚的回忆
尽兴之时，随手将我遗弃
我无力，反抗你的背弃
只因在那瞬间，似乎有了心灵的交替
就这样，我被遗弃
我无力，只因我是一个玩具

time

2008-03-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

当我们被迫前进
不断的丢掉东西
直到丢了最珍贵的
或许依旧连哀伤的时间也没有
只是
如果最终可以换得一样东西
我们要换什么
会不会到了最后一天
我们依然忙碌的
无法停下来计算
我们其实在用真正的自己
和他人所期待的自己交换

2008-03-22T04:16:00.000-07:00

Hello, this is your favourite girl here :D
Heheheheh.
Make your blog entries more interesting luh!
Put some pictures or videos instead of just words :)
Or at least have some colours man!
Look at my blog, it's the perfect example of an interesting blog!
Heheheheh :P

I think you purposely referred to me in the suay-stuff section.
"2. took wrong bus and picked wrong time to cab
5.some people made me send 2 sms before dey reply me"
Talking about me right right right?
Haha, I know you always take the wrong bus cause of me,
But too baddddddddddddddd. Ha!
And number5 is definitely talking about me luh ._.

P.S. Stop complaining that you're suay luhhhhhhh.
The more you say you're suay the suay-er you get :D

XOXO,
Beixin (:

在世界的中心呼喊爱情

2008-03-20T20:26:00.000-07:00

每个人的心中
都有一段与生命同在的青春爱恋
难以抹灭
而思念至深时
我们将不自觉地活在世界的中心
呼喊着一段失去的恋情
想念一个我们曾经深爱的人
终于明白
你和他之间，是一生的记忆

那时我们总有好多话
什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早
却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化
我不想再多说话
经过了相遇挣扎
我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了
有一天你突然问我
在那个时候是否也爱着他
我也很想他我们都一样
在他的身上曾找到翅膀
只是那时的他
是因为你他开始飞翔
我也很想他在某个地方
我少了尴尬你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短
思念却很长
还记得那年我们三人许下的愿望
星星骗了我们我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分
我们都一样

失去挚爱为何如此心痛
你将永远活在我心中
我们将思念给予彼此的录音带
在沮丧，快乐，感伤的时候按下play
让人们知道在有生之年
我谈了一段让全世界都羡慕的爱情

爱你

直到记忆的盒子无情锁起

=_=

2008-03-20T09:10:00.001-07:00

2day is such a tiring day..but duno tired for wat

suay

2008-03-19T09:37:00.000-07:00

dis few days damn suay...and i have problem sleeping which is why i am doing this now.might be rumbling nonsense so please help me spot things that doesn't make any sense in the entry

ok i tried to write all the suay things that happened this two days so i am just gona skip it.

gues i shall just list out the suay stuff
1.woke up early and couldnt continue sleeping
2. took wrong bus and picked wrong time to cab
3.keep losing during pool(its the so call ' distraction' at the next table..very hot 'distraction')
4.too high to sleep but very sleepy
5.some people made me send 2 sms before dey reply me
6.dance class is fully booked when i was there for the lesson filled with enthusiasm
7.no $ go zouk

lili is going off to australia sia..damn sad..its like another friend gone just like that. i like 4L because even though after we graduate we dint spend a lot of time together but we still feel close to each other. but now i know things are gona change...some people going overseas...some people have their own commitments..o well i guess that's just life.thats why life sucks

chiobu pls help me add tag board~~~i know your tired but help me kk =DD

1st entry

2008-03-17T08:50:00.000-07:00

ok i am finally blogging again and i will blog more often i guess because i now have wireless internet access in my room =D i can even go online with my psp like how cool is that. RUMOR says that livejournal is easier to use but i doubt so because they asked me to type in alot of crap so anw i am back to blogspot again

owell today is just another typical day of a jobless guy : wake up late in the morning, read the papers and have breakfast, gym and suntan, lunch and sleep, go out for a while , come back dinner + tv + online and sleep then back to another day of a jobless guy haha how routine is that man
went over to the oschool dance studio today with jiahui. the reception guy took forever to come and attend to us. i just hope that when lessons start on wednesday, it will be better than i thought
there seem to be alot of things i intended to do nowadays but lazy to do even though its within reach haha but at least i drew on the cap i bought!!! the result was quite cute BUT i added some silly things on it which makes it super extra

ok i know i said this a dozen times but i gonna say it once again. went to the arena wid my buds de other day and its 1 for 1 for shooters. so, i went up to the guy and asked for 4 shots, because 2 shots and 1 for 1 will be 4, which then again means that i only have to pay for 2. BUT i asked if the price is 12 bucks which is like the other shots. in the end that waiter thought i ordered 12 shots and since its 1 for 1, he brought me 24 shots in FLAMES

yes in flames u can read it a few more times. rofl everything just went on fire suddenly no matter how they try to put it out.the wine was spilling all over plus the flame. it was hilarious and extremely fascinating. the fun continues when i tried to explain about how the order is ordered wrongly and i wun be paying the 240 dollar bill

yes 240 dollar bill u can read it a few more times once again.in the end i managed to cut it down to 60 so ya. we had loads of fun that night even though there were no chicks =D this shows that clubbing is not just for grinding but also for bonding

rule #1 is a freaking scary movie. any guys who wanna make the girls go "zomg this is damn scary "* hug you then i guess this is the right movie =D

so much for the 1st entry.need to start filling up uni applications 2mrw arrrrgggg

ps sumone pls help me put a tag board i know its cbox but where do i copy paste it to!!!thanks haha